One year ago, my world was turned upside down with four simple words...“You have breast cancer.”
The scariest part of this whole cancer journey were those few days after getting my diagnosis. A period in which they dropped the biggest of bombs on me, and yet had no answers as to how severe my cancer was.
And that FEAR...the fear of the UNKNOWN after a bomb like that is absolutely T E R R I F Y I N G!
A moment in time that I will never forget—the DREAD I felt on the drive home while thinking about my family. Of the possibility that I could miss out on a life spent with my husband. Our dreams of growing old together and all the adventures we’d yet to have. That thought alone was suffocating.
But what was worse, was the thought of our kids growing up without me. Of all the big and little moments I’d miss out on. First loves, graduations, becoming adults, getting married and starting families of their own...the thought of not being there for any of that; to not be there for them if and when they needed me—it was unbearable. And to have a newborn baby who we were only just getting to know and adore so much, that she may never have a chance to get to know or even remember who her Mommy was...I was numb. THOSE were the most terrifying days of my life.
Which is why, this year and every year when I look back on THAT December 5th, I will forever be thankful. Thankful for a second chance at all of it.
A second chance at life.
To being a wife to such an incredible husband.
To being Mom to three beautiful and amazing children.
My family has been my bright spot through all this. With laughter through the tears. Smiles and coloring parties through the pain and sickness. Love and warmth through the darkest of times. I am so blessed to be given a second chance to be here for them like they’ve been for me, and not another day will go by that I take that for granted.
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